sunrise. with GOD.

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

well. my life is just sad. its so sad that i have started making display pictures for messenger using microsoft word to add text. which is even more depressing. why cant life just restart. go backwards. start again where i was happy. i wish i knew why my life feels so dark. and empty. and sad.

i know its partially cos i keep sayin how i hate ppl, and how i dun like studyin and all that. but then, how come i never felt like this in the past? now i know what childhood innocence is. u like everyone, u think everyone is nice, u are happy, u do ur homework and u study. but not now. no no now u have to worry abt lots more stuff. and to make matters worse i've started thinkin abt life.

i noe that actually i make myself busy. by volunteerin for lots of stuff. and slackin when i m supposed to be doin work. and caring too much abt my social life. so if i could just forget everything. drown myself in my own world. leave everything else alone. after all isnt that what we are supposed to do? "oh ur in skool now. u should just concentrate on ur studies. other things can wait."

i just want to be able to like studying. if i liked studyin i would actually study. dun noe if i used to, but i wonder why i dun now. now i just want to go out. buy lots and lots of cds. learn better guitar. go learn drums. play in a band. write more songs. get a photo editing software. stop being sad.

life is like a really really long run. its like around the world. sometimes u see a backstreet or something, thinking that its a shortcut, go in and get stuck. then u have to crawl up again, pick up ur momentum. then u trip and fall and injure urself. then u have to get up again. but now i have stopped running. slowing to a walk. turning into nearby shops and places on the way, stopping my run. then when i walk out of the shop, i find that tons of ppl have overtaken me. and i am falling behind. further and further away. now i am walking with ppl i dont noe, going so slow.

i really have to try. so if u realise i become less social. well i m sorry. just that sometimes u have to give up some things when u want to do well in others. the only thing is. can i give it up?

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God Bless

Dannyboy