Oh yes I'm the great pretender
Pretending I'm doing well
My need is such I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh yes I'm the great pretender
Adrift in a world of my own
I play the game but to my real shame
You've left me to dream all alone

Too real is this feeling of make believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Ooh Ooh yes I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not (you see)
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're still around

if only. if anyone still remembered the old me. if i still remembered the only me. if only i still was the old me.

i think im realli confused. now i think life is like building a road. there are two hills in the distance. one is heaven. the other is. well. u noe. so anyways u spend ur life building this. sometimes u close ur eyes, ignore the signs showing u the right way, or get distracted by the voices in ur ear telling u to turn away. then ur road slowly curves off. towards the other hill. sometimes wad u need is a wall. or a tree that blocks u. u smash into it and then realise ur building the wrong way. u veer back but soon get distracted and turn away again. at other times u see ppl building their own roads. they meet with u and ur paths join. that makes it easier for both of u, building ur road with less effort cos u help each other. but sometimes that joint path heads in the wrong direction.

argh that was just weird. but nvrmind. the holidays are over. i must start anew. just when i thot things were gettin better i get pulled down. i will not let this happen.

that was a realli weird post. doubt u guys wil understand it. if u do, good. haha.

to have someone to hold
to have someone to talk to
to have someone
will i ever get the chance?

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